This past week has had some challenges, and for some reason I woke up struggling with emotions that I couldn’t explain. I cried while I made my husband’s breakfast and had no answer when he asked me what was wrong. I just had that “I wanna get away” feeling which means, “I need extra alone time with God.”
So after he left, and I settled down in my chair to talk with God, I said, “God, I’m tired of being strong.”
And He said, “I’m the One who is strong,” and He restored my soul. I feel weak, but there is nothing wrong with that, because I really am weak in myself. But where I am weak, there His strength is perfected!
I said, “God, I just want to hide in You.” I said it apologetically, as if it was wrong of me to want to hide.
But He whispered, “That’s what you’re supposed to do!” Immediately I remembered how He showed me that all the promises of Psalm 91 are for the person who LIVES non-stop in this hiding place that is Him. (series here) That psalm says it’s for:
The one who dwells in the shelter of Him…
The one who abides in His shadow…
The one who always claims Him as their refuge and fortress…
The protection and provision of that psalm happen when the Lord is my refuge and dwelling place. Not my visiting place. My where-I-dwell-and-stay place! He really does want me to remain in hiding. Always!
Does that sound cowardly? Do you think, “But wait a minute, aren’t we sometimes called to fight?”
Yes, we are… but we are called to fight from a place of rest. A place that is rooted and grounded in Him.
Everything He calls us to do—even the fighting—He wants us to do from a place of rest, while He does the working and the fighting for us and through us!
We rest and He moves our feet and establishes our steps.
We rest and He puts the words in our mouths.
We rest and He equips us and trains us.
We rest and He fights our battles.
We rest and He does the works.
A month ago, God spoke to me about the confidence of rest that He was giving me. I want to share what I wrote in my journal. I wrote:
Lord, that is what amazes me the most about what You’ve done in this last year. My confidence in You is so remarkable. It’s a confidence of rest. That’s an amazing phrase, Lord. A confidence of rest. I don’t think I’ve ever thought about the connection between confidence and rest before. I think I want a song about it. But really, Lord… we like to think of confidence as bravado, but it’s not. Bravado is “fake it ‘till you make it.” True confidence is when you know that you can’t possibly fail… you’re not faking anything… you just exist…walk…BE… knowing that you’ve got what it takes and there will be no uncertainty or lack or struggle or fear or failure or even striving, because no matter what rises before you that needs doing, what you are will be sufficient.
Except, Lord, when it’s confidence in You, then it’s knowing that YOU can’t possibly fail. I’m not faking anything and neither are You. I simply exist in who and what You are. I can walk…exist… knowing that You’ve got what it takes, and You are in me and I am in You… and there will be no uncertainty or lack or struggle or fear or failure or even striving, because no matter what rises before me that needs doing, ALL THAT YOU ARE will always be sufficient. More than sufficient, actually!
Today, December 2, 2023, I pray that, just as God reminded me this morning of what I had started to slip out of, He will also speak to you, to minister to your needs this morning. Here are all the scriptures He reminded me of this morning. May they minister to you as well!
Psalm 2:12 How blessed are all who take refuge in Him!
Psalm 18:30 He is a shield to all who take refuge in Him.
Psalm 34:8 Taste and see that the Lord is good; How blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him!
Psalm 73:28 But as for me, the nearness of God is good for me; I have made the Lord God my refuge, so that I may tell of all Your works.
Psalm 23:2 He restores my soul.
Psalm 91:9 For you have made the Lord, my refuge, even the Most High, your dwelling place.
2 Corinthians 12:9 My grace is sufficient, for My power is perfected in [your] weakness.
Isaiah 30:15 In repentance and rest you will be saved, In quietness and trust [in God] is your strength.
John 15:4-5 Remain in Me, and I in you. Just as the branch cannot bear fruit by itself but must remain in the vine, so neither can you [bear fruit] unless you remain in Me. I am the vine, you are the branches; the one who remains in Me, and I in him bears much fruit, for apart from Me you can do nothing.
Exodus 14:14 The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.
Psalm 144:1-2 Blessed be the Lord, my rock, who trains my hands for war, and my fingers for battle;
My faithfulness and my fortress, my stronghold and my Savior, my shield and He in whom I take refuge,
Isaiah 26:12 O Lord, you make us secure, for even all we have accomplished, you have done for us.
Mark 13:11 Do not worry beforehand about what you are to say, but say whatever is given you at that time; for you are not the ones speaking, but it is the Holy Spirit.
Proverbs 16:9 A person’s mind plans his way [where they think they should go] , but the Lord [is actually the one who] directs our steps and makes them sure.
Hebrews 4:1 Therefore, we must fear if, while a promise remains of entering His rest, any one of you may seem to have come short of it. 2 For indeed we have had good news preached to us, just as they also did; but the word they heard did not benefit them, because they were not united with those who listened with faith. [Therefore they had no rest.] 3 For we who have believed enter that rest.