This year continues to be a strange season of answered prayers and waiting, of wandering and closeness. Of miracles and disappointments. Nothing in life (other than God) seems consistent, least of all me.
Unfortunately, the overtime I have put in at work lately has gotten in the way of my blogging… but I hope that will change, along with some other changes I am working on making.
For those who are interested, I did just now post two small bits I wrote over the last two months that somehow or other never got posted. Here they are, if you want to catch up:
So yes (if you read that first link) my husband does have a new job, after years of prayer for one. We took a pay cut for the job, but it is worth it on so many levels.
The thing is, though… we’re discovering that the pay cut, compounded with significantly higher expenses on several fronts that we did not foresee the new job entailing, are equaling a bit of a financial quandary.
You know what, though? I’m discovering that God prepared me for this. If you read through the history of this blog (or even just look at all posts labeled “finances“) then you’ll see that fear over finances has been one of my biggest struggles.
So it’s quite remarkable to me the way this isn’t upsetting me. Yes, I’m perplexed as to what to do (if there’s anything we’re supposed to do). And yet, my trust in this God who cares for me is unwavering. Through it all, I’ve come to know Him. And it is inconceivable to me that He would so marvelously answer a decade’s worth of prayers and not have all the details worked out.
My prayer as we walk through this is not that He will provide… why ask Him to do something He’s already promised to do? It’s that He will continually teach me more and more to follow His leading. That we will be able to remain in His rest and peace. That we will not get in His way by doing our own thing.
I know down one path is worry, exhaustion from overwork, lack of sleep, etc. Down the other path is rest, peace, strength, and miraculous provision.
The way to choose the second path is to seek Him and wait.