One of the biggest things I struggle with is wondering if the way I’m living out my days is worthwhile.
It often seems like most of my time gets used up just getting through the day. Working to pay the bills. Doing mundane things like laundry and cooking. Trying and failing to keep the house clean. Running errands.
And while I know those things are necessary and even good if they’re done with a servant’s heart, in my heart of hearts I wonder… do those things REALLY count? No one is getting saved by them. Very few people – if anyone – are being drawn closer to God because I barely keep up with the laundry and cook healthy meals and get the house half clean.
And so I ask myself, what makes a day worthwhile in the eternal scheme of things? What about the days when I get up, take a shower, go to work, cook and eat meals, read my Bible but don’t get anything out of it, and fall in bed at the end of the day? What about the days that are downright awful?
Solomon obviously had the same questions and struggles, for he said, “I have seen all the works which have been done under the sun, and behold, all is vanity and striving after wind.” It makes me feel slightly better to know I’m in the company of the wisest man who ever lived. But I still want my question answered.
So I go to the One who has the answers. And He began whispering His promises again.
– “You are My vessel, and I am crafting you.” Jer. 18
– “I am busy completing what I began in you.” Phil. 1:6
– “A vessel is crafted in stages. It is not made perfect all at once.” 2 Cor. 3:18
– “My plans for your future are good.” Jer. 29:11
– “But sometimes the journey to get there requires walking through valleys and shadows and dry places.” Ps. 23
– “I am the One who turns dry places into springs.” Is. 41:18
– “The steps of the righteous are ordered by the Lord.” Ps. 37:23
– “But you must be steadfast and patient, and wait on My timing.” James 1:4
– “For I will make all things beautiful in My time.” Ecc. 3:11
And then I remember the song He placed in my spirit as I woke up this morning:
“Just hold onto the promises. Hold onto the promises. Jesus is alive so hold tight, hold onto the promises.”
If today, I hold onto His promises that He has a master plan, then I can trust that my boring un-spectacular days are part of an amazing plan. I can trust that He is doing something right now in me that is important.
And maybe, if I am willing to let Him open my eyes… maybe He will show me the glory of what He is doing through the drudgery and rush of this life I’m living right now.